Going Back to Rexburg

So.....I have unwillingly made the decision to put myself back in -degree weather for the next 3 or so months. I had decided to stay in SC for winter semester and then go back in April, however, my beloved Veronica has convinced me she can't live without me and I need to be needed, SO, here I am, getting ready to go back to Rexie.

Life has been way weird since I've been home. I went back to my old job, which is good and bad at times, depending on the day. But mostly fine. I also have been working at a boutique on main street, which has been really fun. It's finally good to sell something that I love. Well, I love food, but selling it is somewhat different I guess.

Life at home as been the same. Only not. There is something very empty in my home this time around. Maybe it's not my home at all. Maybe it's me. It's really hard to tell these days. My sister has grown up on me now and is about to graduate high school. My dad is unusual. I don't know lately. Something is very odd though. But I'm really going to miss all the strange activity. I feel like I haven't been here long enough. Like the visit shouldn't be over.

Well, one more semester, hopefully, and then I am free to do whatever it is that my heart ever so desires, right? Wow...that sounds like a lot of trouble now that I'm thinking about it. Anywho...this may be my last post before the new year. Too bad it wasn't something wise. Just whining. Haha...

I miss Veronica so much. Haha. I mean, we've lived practically our entire adulthood lives together, as long as that has been. We've gone through struggle after struggle to get through school. We're almost there, but it's been a tough road. From the streets of Salt Lake to the desolate country of Idaho, these 2 east coast girls have endured much grief and heartache on their journey to a bachelor's degree.

Now that we're both off track at school and both gone back home, it feels weird not talking to my bff everyday. I mean, nothing has changed with our friendship, when we see each other again it will be just like old times, but it seems strange that we're living our lives apart right now. Haha, maybe this means we're just a little too close, haha. I miss my friend and I can't wait for the next chapter of "The Adventures of V and Me" to continue.

The picture above was right before another dream of ours was crushed...the road trip home. We ended up not driving home and flying at the last minute. Its so typical of how we are. We have big dreams you know, but they usually only work out 30% of the time. Gotta love life!

I love a kissy face.

Half Jackets

Is it just me, or does anyone else find it weird how cute the half "tent" looking jackets look on models and in magazines, but when you put one on yourself, you feel labor pains?

I mean, all I'm saying is WHAT IS THE DEAL? I like them a lot. I have a couple. I've worn them a couple times. But if you have any chest at it, it just pokes the jackets way out and up and makes things look oh so silly. I want to look cute, not pregnant. When I'm pregnant someday, I'll want to look both, but for now, I just want to look very cute.

I'm a little aggrevated with the styles that are out right now. I've always thought of myself as the type of person who grows with the latest fashions, but I almost feel like there isn't a specific style at the moment. I see girls wearing all kinds of stuff these days. Like...things that I wouldn't wear, some things that I would wear, but never together. I do like the skinny jeans, not the emo looking ones, but the ones you can pull off with boots or heels. Those are hot. But now leggings are starting to look a little iffy to me.

I guess if I had it my way, I'd wear sheer nightgowns and cowboy boots with a green scarves every day of the week. Luckily, I have friends and that isn't an issue. (But doesn't that just sound SO Lindsey Lohan?). I really am waiting for something to happen to the fashion industry that will produce some kind of trend that sticks. I don't know about anyone else, but I am really tired of buying things that are so today but quick to be yesterday. I also wish that I could identify myself with a particular look. I have several friends who wear the same trends all year long and thats just them. I expect it and it works. But me...no....I'm Hollister hoodie girl by day, Prada princess by night. Ok, ok, not really. I mix it up a little more than that, but not much lately.

I am frantically on the search for a better outside of me. I'll let ya know when I find it!

When Bad Things Happen To Good People

I've always been very aware of this strange happening that seems to occur far too often. Bad things happening to good people, like all over the world, everyday. It's so sick to me.

Growing up LDS, I've always heard that we all must go through trials, it's all a test of faith, those who go through challenges will receive blessings in the future, and blah blah. You know the whole deal. I've had the great opportunity to be one of those people, who I consider good, having bad things happening to me. And when it's all said and done, what is it that you really take from the situation? Do you grow into a stronger and much wiser person? Or do we just crumble and flake for the rest of our lives, thinking that we're never good enough and that we will continue to experience heartache?

WELL, I think I've also gone down both of those paths at some point in my life and I must admit that I have grown a great deal. I look back on things that I pitied myself on and immediately try to forget them. It's the things that I faced head on and made it through that have stuck with me the most in life. Bad things happen to good people. They just do. It's the cruelest joke I've ever seen in life, but it's how it's always been. Those who are negative and do unkind things seem to always prosper. But do they? I kind of wish I could get inside of a murderer's mind right before he falls asleep at night and see how grand he feels about himself. I'd just like to know.

I know, this is a very random blog. Ok. I really know this. But I am the most random minded person, so I've been told. I just have experienced a lot of bad resulting from good with myself and friends and family and just anyone, and it really bothers me. I don't think there will ever be an answer to this odd mystery. It is what it is. But I do know that wickedness never was happiness, right? And as long as I know that, I will continue to be one of those good people experiencing bad fate. It seems like you can't win for losing...

Holla back for CHANGE!

So the election. Wow. Thats all I can say. Reading other people's blog about the election is what actually inspired me to voice my opinion about the situation. But you know what? I am constantly told that I voice my opinion way too much and I usually come off the wrong way. So now I'm a little unsure if I should really say what I wanted to say about Obama.

I honestly was never crazy about Obama or McCain in the beginning. Actually, I never really got into politics all that much until this year for whatever reason. The first time I really got interested in who was running was when me and a friend got into an argument about why she was going to vote for Obama. When I asked her why, she simply said "Because he's black. There doesn't need to be any other reason." And she was dead serious. Thats when I realized that this year, people's decisions were probably going to be based on a lot of things other than policies. To me, people are just people, right? I live in a state where in some areas, white might be the minority, and thats fine with me. I have a million and one friends who are black, in fact, one of my very best friends is black, so race is like whatev to me.

I don't agree with Barack Obama on a number of things. I also don't think McCain's plan was all that brillant either. But to me, it seemed pretty obvious who was the better choice. I was shocked that Obama won. I'm not sure how the next four years will go, but Obama's what we have, so what can you do? I do agree that it's great we have our first African American President. In all of history, I'm on the earth to witness that, so it's cool. I just kinda wish it had been an African American with better policies and experience than Obama. But am I an Obama hater? NO. He won. I'm giving him full support. We're all living in this country, so we all need to get it together as one, you know? What good is hating a president going to do for anyone?...Exactly.

Why not?

It's true. I always have to have what everybody else has. It really doesn't matter what it is either, and a blog is no exception.

I actually have never been a big fan of blogs, especially since a religion teacher I had forced us to blog on our scripture reading pretty much everyday. Maybe that sentence alone could sum me up, but I'd like to think not.

So what should my first blog be about? Wow. No clue. I've just spent 2 semesters writing newspaper articles for Scroll and about 5 papers a day (communications major, you know) for every class at BYUI. Writing, which was something I've always enjoyed, all of a sudden became something I was constantly burdened with. However, I've since had the chance to regain some strength and I'm ready to work again.

So for anyone who actually reads this who doesn't know me all that well, let me fill you in really quick.

I spent the first 19 years of my life in the fast paced city of Walterboro, where all dreams basically DIE. My family is rather small, just one younger sister, Brittany. Our mother passed away in 2004 and we've been babysitting our dad ever since. I graduated from LDS Business College last year and I'm currently attending Brigham Young University in Idaho, but I'm off-track this semester. I'm a communications major but I have no idea what aspect of that I want to pursue. At first it was journalism, until I figured out it was actually WRITING, haha, but lately I'm leaning towards broadcast. Either way, I've only got one semester to figure that out too. I currently have several loves in my life; The Gospel, my family, Ollie (the hottest peke/yorkie you ever did see), Lil' Kitty, Mariah Carey, Stevie Nicks, Vince Vaughn, and Jay Leno (I know, it's this sick obsession, it's not even right). Oh, and Facebook, how could I forget.

And this complete my offical first blog!