What the run???

Well, I almost died 30 minutes ago. I harassed my roommate for an hour to go running with me at the gym, and when she was finally ready, boy was I sorry. For a girl who said she didn't like running, she sure zipped up that hill with little or no effort. Poor me...lagging behind, barely keeping up, what a shame. It's been awhile since I actually worked my body. I'm so used to going to the gym, getting on my nice little treadmill, and going as slow as I wanted for as long as I wanted, tricking myself into thinking I was really making a difference. Tonight was different. We ran all the way up the hill to the Benson and then across campus, up some random stairs, and then back down. It was hardcore. I felt like I was on an episode of The Biggest Loser. Well, I always did say I wanted to be on that show.

I wish I was motivated enough to get up and do it again in the morning, although I know I won't. I miss exercising regularly, being obsessed about gaining an ounce back of any of the weight I had lost. Now, somehow I've lost that drive. I still care, but I see the scale go up a pound every once in awhile and I try to convince myself that it could be worse. I need to get for real and stop screwing around because I will NOT go back to the weight I was in high school.

I've set a real goal tonight. I want to be the best me and I can be. I changed a lot of other things in my life to do that, but to fully become the best person I can be, I need to be healthy. It doesn't mean looking like Kate Moss in 1997, it just means getting fit, watching what I eat, and getting exercise and rest. How hard can that really be? I'm so lucky too. I go to a school where I have access to a free gym and plenty of hills to climb. There is no reason to be 1 pound overweight anymore. I've realized, not only with weight, but with anything in life, it's all about what YOU want. If I want a cookie, I will find one, right? So if I want to lose 30 lbs, thats up to me too. I can achieve it if I really work. And what is more rewarding than losing 30 lbs and being able to say you did i ALL alone, without the help of anyone? It's a good feeling to work really hard and feel good and have others notice the change. I need that back in my life.

Alright, well...I should stop wasting good time I could be doing some crunches or something. Get motivated people, love yourself, life is so short, your youth is not forever! Ha. Start running today. And someone needs to volunteer to run the 10K with me this yr in the Teton Dam race. Any takers?